We have another set of doctor's appointments coming up through the end of this week and the beginning of next week. Echo #3 is Friday midday/afternoon, oncology is Tuesday. I see an OB every week now (since I have 2 and see them each every other week), so those feel more like part of daily life than a true appointment.
Please be praying that we will see a stable or shrinking tumor and that God will continue to orchestrate a miracle for our family. We are confident in The Lord's healing hand, yet still saddened and frustrated at our reality. We both feel very near to God right now- both because he is holding us so closely and because we are so desperately clinging to him.
We have been talking about baby delivery arrangements with the doctors, which is super exciting for us since a couple months ago we weren't sure if we would ever have those conversations. God has already blessed us with so much life even in the last 2 months. It's looking like I will have an early C-section, hopefully planned. No one is willing to say for certain if it will be planned or not because if it needs to happen suddenly, then it will be unplanned. No one wants to be wrong :) I will have a team of people monitoring my heart function and taking care of the delivery, so we will all be in good hands.
Sweet little baby girl is still awesome and is doing really well. She's moving around a LOT and I can feel her moving around a LOT, which is very cool and exciting and nauseating. On an ultrasound about a month and a half ago we watched her pivot her whole body around her head... so like she did a flip and then did a backwards flip! Which was very cool for us to see when she was so small. Well, she's bigger than that now and still doing the pivot flips and I can SEE with my EYES my little belly disfigure itself into odd formations to accommodate these gymnastic feats. THAT is awesome. And again, a little nauseating :)
I was reading this week and came across Jeremiah 29:11
I've seen and read that verse hundreds of times in the past, especially around high school graduation, on greeting cards, and miscellaneous Christian living paraphernalia. But reading it THIS WEEK was the only time in my whole life as a Christian that I really READ it and appreciated it and understood that it meant something for ME. In fact, I have verbally belittled the overuse of this verse in the past since it has become more cliche to me than truly inspired words from God. But right now I want so desperately to know that The Lord has a real plan for me, that he isn't going to bring harm to me or baby girl, that I have a future waiting for me, and that he is giving me continual hope. Wow. I hope this week that God will speak to you in something you have seen a hundred times before, but that you can experience the inspiration of seeing it with new eyes.
Thank you again for your overwhelming support. We still love getting your texts and emails, they never bother us so keep them coming! We will update the blog again Friday afternoon with a brief report from the echo, and then next week I hope to talk more about our new eating habits, so stay tuned. Also please take a moment to subscribe by email at the top right so you can be notified when there is a new posting. It seems like the notification goes out a little later than the post itself, but it is still helpful :) Love you all.